I started day shift today. A lot of people were really nice to me. I hope it continues to go well. I took one and a half provigials, one ephedra and 2 xanax today. I didn't have any sleep episodes, so that was good. I've been feeling nausea when I eat now. I have absolutely no appetite. I could lose some weight but I don't think I am eating enough to be healthy. I am a little sad tonight. Not huge though. Going to bed at a decent hour may take some getting used to. I flirted with a guy on my game today. I actually liked him. That hasn't ever really happened before. I saw Clarence this morning at work. He is going out of town to see his dad so I will not see him until a week from tomorrow. I am going to go have lunch with Vera tomorrow and then I have a dentist appointment on wednesday. I am scared of being bored on my days off. It makes me want to sleep or to want to do drugs. I really want to stop doing drugs and try to get my life in some kind of order. I am too old to be a drug addict, single with no savings. I need to call Jill tomorrow. I haven't talked to her in a really long time.