The night before last I took two tylenolpm and had a really rough night sleeping. I kept dreaming I was awake and it felt like I was the next morning. Last night I took three xanax and I slept better. I took a provigal and an ephedrine today. I would like to go to sleep by about ten at night so I could get up in the morning and work out. Today was an okay day at work. I felt okay. Not great but I wasn't extremely depressed. I was supposed to go out with some people to a bar tonight but I ended up chickening out. I was walking up t the door and I turned around and went back to my truck. Oh well, one step at a time I guess. I am really stressed about money. I hope I keep doing good on day shift because if I don't I am going to be screwed. My bills have really racked up between UNM and my student loan. I am going to call opn my student loan and see if I can get the payment lowered. 260 a month is a lot! I also think I am going to go to the psychiatrist once every two months instead of every month. Mostly it just seems like we are waiting for the VNS to kick in and I can't afford to pay for the adjustments.