Well I did some meth again. I wish I hadn't. I also got a new connection. That's bad news. I get so bored and lonely on my days off. I need to figure out something to do so that I don't do drugs. I always feel really bad the next few days coming down and if I get drug tested I am screwed. I had been feeling somewhat better. Not great, but not suicidal. I hope the small amount of drugs I did won't affect me too badly.