I feel better today. It is my day off, around 8:00pm. I am bored but feel okay. I saw Clarence today for about four hours which gave me something to do. I talked to Maggie on the phone today. I don't think we are going to be very close friends anymore. She doesn't seem very interested in my stuff, and I am jealous and not very interested in her school or her relationship with Martin. I am less important to her than these things. It is pretty annoying. She was so happy when I moved to New Mexico because she didn't have a boyfriend so she needed someone to talk to. Now I am kicked to the curb. I didn't tell Clarence that I have been thinking about him a lot lately. I tried to tell him that I loved him and wanted to see him more often but it didn't come out very well. I can still feel the VNS when the current goes on and my voice still goes out.